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Sunday, August 27, 2006

Afternoon, got into a msn conversation with sir, fatin and shakila.

Ok, I admit I was wrong at some points, I am willing to change.

I didn't expect he would read my blog, and maybe sharing a comment will be wrong. So, I come to this conclusion, never be honest and true to anyone and don't even be straightforward, you end up getting into more trouble and hurt someone. I felt stupid to even wanna blog about my cca. Maybe I had think too much, I should have kept quiet and wait for something to happen.

Coporal punishment wasnt the best. Chin tau and Ching yang had told me several times, in fact I wasn't even keen to go into coporal punishment. I never in fact punished someone badly, the push ups did last friday was for fun, indeed it cheers up the sec 1 a little. In reflection of what Sir Preetpal said that no one will ever be happy being punished, well that was an interesting perspective, but such people do exist, they do exist.

Are we ncc? are we? NOPE, it's definitely a no-no! Well, what did daniel sir told me that friday? It's funny trying to think of it. Never are we trying to learn from the ncc and neither should we do anything that gonna involve the ncc, well said sir preetpal and well done daniel sir!

I am not someone who suck up to anyone just because they are powerful. Bear that in mind, if you are strong, you won't have to do such things. Only because you are WEAK, you will have to do such things. Shakila don't ever be afraid to speak up, I know that you are scare you offended the sirs and cost you your position. Maybe I was so daring to blog such stuffs is due to motivation by Quan Xiang's blog but there's a difference! He had nothing to loss while I had something I cannot afford to loss. This post of mine come hard and uneasy and I should have think twice before I got myself into any deep shit.

Sensei once said never tried to oppose the force but to flow with it. Finally I could understand such principle, I should have flow together with what happening and not tried to disrupt it. I could have remained calm throughout the conversation and think before I speak. I had let emotions took over me, emotions had controlled me, I had failed. Completly lost...

But what the point regretting? Does it help? Nope, it's time to stay calm and move on swiftly. A failure wasn't to be accepted, it was to learn from. If anything should had happened, I should be prepared, all ready to face whatever that's coming. Dreams are alway dreams, they are never realistic, so why dream? Reality is what all of us should be facing...

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